W-H-Y

A lot of things came through my mind lately
Making me unable to sleep tightly
A lot of questions that I want to know what the answers are
A lot of memories that making me unable to stop my tears
A lot of "why"
A word that I shouldn't use to represent my feelings
Anger, sadness, rejection, disappointment, discouragement
But I can't keep the word from coming
Even though I keep reminding myself that everything happened for a good reason,
The word keep haunting my mind

I want to know "why" these things can't stop from happening
Why I keep falling to the same hole again and again
Why I keep crying for the same problem
Why I keep loving the same person
Why I can't be brave enough to let go my feeling
Why I don't want to move on
Why I keep holding to the air
Why I can't learn the lesson
...Why Why Why...

I keep myself drowning with the problems
Problems that has turned me into a person I don't want to be
A person who I avoid
A person with unpleasant characteristics
A person with so little faith
A person full of pride
A person full of negative thinking
A person full of anger
A person full of disappointment
A person full of hatred

Will I ever be able to be a better person?
Will I ever be able to get out of this problem?
Will I ever be able to move on with my life?
Will I ever be able to let go offenses?
Will I ever be able to move on?
Will I ever be able to stand up by myself?