Static Moment

What should I do now?

I'm really confused for what's happening to me right now.

I have no more idea that can help me to make things better.

I have tried my best before.

I have gone over my limit.

Pouring all the patience I have to face the problem.

The patience that usually run out short.

But now, my heart can't endure it any more.

It's been gone way far beyond my limit.

What should I do now?

I really want to make things better.

So all of us can hang out and share the laughter together.

For now, it's all seems impossible.

All that exist now is just an awkwardness and hesitation.

Some part of me really want to love you unconditionally.

Yet, the other part of me still can't tolerate the way you behave toward me.

I'm struggling with my own feeling right now.

I totally have no idea how to behave to you.

I want to keep trying to be nice to you,

but I can't lie and fool my own feeling.

I don't want to pretend to be a nice person, when I'm NOT!

I'm now entering my static moment.

Stuck here by myself thinking of what can I do to make things better.

I know there must be something better God has prepared for me.

One day, with a smile on my face, I'd be able to say,

"Thank you, Lord for putting me in that situation back then!"