What To Do When Trouble Comes

Today's daily devotional was really helpful in helping me to get through my problem..

Here's what it says..

"Fight the good fight of the faith" ~ 1 Timothy 6:12

Sooner or later we all have some trouble in life.

We all have some trials and tribulations.

Everybody goes through times of testing.

And not every storm shows up in the forecast.

Some days we can wake up and think everything is going to be great.

Before that day is over, we may be tested by all kinds of trouble we were not expecting.

Trouble is part of life, so we simply have to be ready for it.

We need to have a planned response to trouble, because it is more difficult to get strong after trouble comes.

It is better to be prepared by staying strong.

The first thing you need to do when trouble comes is pray, "God, help me stay emotionally stable."

Do not let your emotions overwhelm you.

The next thing you need to do is trust God.

The instant that fear rises up, pray.

Stay emotionally stable, trust God, and pray.

Then while you are waiting for God to answer, simply keep doing good.

Keep your commitments.

Do not stop serving the Lord just because you have a problem.

The greatest time in the world to keep your commitments to God is in the midst of difficulty and adversity.

When the devil sees that trials and tribulations won't stop you, he will stop troubling you for a while.

To be prepared for the next time you find yourself in a difficult situation, practice saying, "I am going to be faithful to God, and God is going to give me double for my trouble. Satan, you thought you were going to hurt me, but I am going to get a double blessing, because I am one who diligently seeks the Lord."

CRAZY mode: ON!!

OMG OMG OMG!!

I'm really going crazy!!

How can it be??

I keep laughing by myself when I'm not supposed to laugh..

I keep laughing when I actually want to cry..

I can't define my own feeling right now!

Crazily stressful!!

C-R-A-Z-Y!!

I can't release what I feel..

It's stuck inside..

All the feelings are mixing up!

Don't know which one should be taken out first..

Don't know which one is more important..

Don't know which one should I really feel..

ARGHHHHH!!!!

The bottom line is:

~ I keep laughing over POIGNANT situation!! ~

How crazy I can be??

Static Moment

What should I do now?

I'm really confused for what's happening to me right now.

I have no more idea that can help me to make things better.

I have tried my best before.

I have gone over my limit.

Pouring all the patience I have to face the problem.

The patience that usually run out short.

But now, my heart can't endure it any more.

It's been gone way far beyond my limit.

What should I do now?

I really want to make things better.

So all of us can hang out and share the laughter together.

For now, it's all seems impossible.

All that exist now is just an awkwardness and hesitation.

Some part of me really want to love you unconditionally.

Yet, the other part of me still can't tolerate the way you behave toward me.

I'm struggling with my own feeling right now.

I totally have no idea how to behave to you.

I want to keep trying to be nice to you,

but I can't lie and fool my own feeling.

I don't want to pretend to be a nice person, when I'm NOT!

I'm now entering my static moment.

Stuck here by myself thinking of what can I do to make things better.

I know there must be something better God has prepared for me.

One day, with a smile on my face, I'd be able to say,

"Thank you, Lord for putting me in that situation back then!"

The "Reality" Show

So far, it's been an interesting Fall'08 Quarter.

In just a short period of time, a lot of things have happened.

A lot of dramas have happened.

Why does it seems like all those TV shows?

New students, seniors, new crushes, histories,

relationships, friendships, and third party.

I never knew that all these things are really happening.

I thought it's only happened in reality shows.

Oh well, maybe that's the reason why it called a REALITY shows!

Yet, I just still unable to accept that it's happening in my circle.

I just never knew that all these dramas that are

happening could be so irritating and so energy-consumed.

I never knew that it could be so complicated, and

thus raised HATRED amongst us.

Honestly, I have been really tired of all these things.

I almost left it behind a while ago.

I almost been able to say that it's THE END!

However, the new season has come.

I'm forced to play another role.

A role that i don't want to be.

A role that I'm forced to be in it.

During the premiere of this new season,

I have been a "Hear no Evil, See no Evil, & Speak no Evil"

type of person.

But, this new season of drama has sucked me back in.

I really hate REALITY shows!

I have been in it for so long, that I've become so consumed by it.

When the new season came,

I thought I could left it all behind.

I just want to live a life where I can be HAPPY and

shed NO more "emotional" TEARS.

When will it come to THE END??

Am I not patient enough, so God keep putting me in this REALITY shows?

Maybe it is!! God is training me to be a person

who will have a similar characters like He Himself.

I should have just be able to stand still a little bit more,

and not be consumed with all the DRAMAS that are happening.

I should be mature and just be myself.

Being a person who is able to talk easily to new people,

and be friendly.

The PROBLEM is not within me.

Why do I am able to talk to all these new people,

and we can easily be engage in a conversation,

and build friendship through it?

But not to this one person??

Is it me who was wrong?

Or is it this person?

Whatever it takes, as long as you haven't done anything illogical,

I'll try my best to be friendly to you,

and LOVE you as my SISTER.

It's going to be HARD,

since it's me ALONE here who's trying.

You keep standing on the other side,

and not even have the DESIRE to TRY.

But it's OK because I believe that one day you'll be changed,

and finally understand that it's not just about fulfilling

your own WORLDLY DESIRE.

But it's more about our SISTERHOOD in CHRIST...

I [hEaRt] you, Sister...